Alright so I realize it’s been a bit since I’ve blogged my process so far on my part 2 health journey.…. There have certainly been a bunch of ups and downs but I am pressing on!! On january 1 I had this big dream that I would stay in my first state of Ketosis allllll the way until I got to my goal weight. And I did really well for that first month. I stayed in my fat burn state for about 28 days I think? I was so proud of myself!
Then I got super-duper stressed out about a million little things. I thought it wasn’t really bothering me and then we went out on a date night to the movies and about 20 minutes into the movie I had a panic attack. It’s only happened to me once before but my heart and my thoughts were racing and I just felt like a huge ball of stress about anything and everything. It’s so hard to describe but I started crying and told Dan something was wrong with me and we had to leave the theater. We did and the fresh air helped a bit. We walked around downtown Pasadena and decided to sit down on a restaurant patio. I needed to not give any cares about anything so I ordered whatever the heck I wanted and threw caution to the wind. It was what I needed in that moment, when I was overwhelmed with too many cares. I needed to let go of every single one. I chose that knowing that total relaxation of all my rules would be good for me and that tomorrow was a new day to get back on plan.
Which I did! No shame, no guilt. I just needed a “cheat” meal. I feel weird admitting that because as I’m always mentoring others through these situations and encouraging them to find healthy outlets for their emotions…. But at the same time, we are all human. You can both go after your health goals, and also let loose every so often. We have to live in the both/and – not the either/or. One meal isn’t going to ruin your progress! Obviously it can’t be every single weekend. You have to be wise about it too. But food is delicious and life happens and sometimes you can’t be 100% on plan.
That being said, I’ve found that it can be hard to get back ON the wagon after falling off. Which is why I thought I’d share some of my tips for what I do once I’ve broken my ketosis and need to go through the process of getting back in. (Which, since that time at the end of January, I’ve had to do again I think 2 more times.)
The first thing I do is I go back and reexamine my motivation. I might journey about this or go back and read an old journal entry about my motivation. I have to do this because as you get healthier and weigh less and feel lighter, the desperation of “feeling” unhealthy isn’t as strong. You may even need new motivation. Making sure my head is in the right place is step one.
Step two is that as I get back into ketosis on optavia, I log everything on the MyFitnessPal app. One of the flaws I struggle with is that I can start to get lazy about weighing and measuring my food, or not drinking enough water, or eating too many “extra” little bites of things throughout the day. So to avoid that I make it non-negotiable that everything must get logged.
I also listen to this episode of the habits of health podcast (they’re actually videos but available as audio too, which is more convenient for me). First of all, this man’s tone of voice is so gentle and warm and he’s like a kind grandfather… which makes me feel like everything is okay and I’m amazing for getting back on board. He talks about how the predictable results of the program only come when you follow the program. “Close enough is not good enough” he says, and “if you modify the program, you’ll get modified results.” SO much truth right there. Plain and simple. So how do you get back to getting those predictable results? You get back to following the program exactly how it’s laid out. Which by the way is so crazy simple you can do it on your best and worst days.
And then soon enough, I’m feeling amazing again. I am motivated, I am exploding with energy because my body is in ketosis and burning fat for fuel, and I’m back to getting those results. Which by the way, I’m down 24 pounds since January 1st so it’s going great.
I am SO not perfect. I am super flawed and human and I have a ton of days where my motivation falters or my appetite is stronger or my emotions are whacked (hello my old friend grief)… but that’s okay. I always know how to get back on track and that’s what matters.
It’s not failure — it’s all just feedback. If I let myself get to the point where I have an emotional meltdown, then that is feedback for me that I need to be doing more little things to care for myself each day. No need to shame myself for that, I am just going to learn from it! Same with eating a “cheat” food. If that happens, well it’s not failure — it’s feedback. Why did it happen? Can I make a healthy version next time to satisfy that craving? Take it all as feedback and you’ll learn so much about yourself!
I want to blog more about my health journey, so maybe I’ll try to update you all again in another week or so! I have no idea if people even like reading these kinds of posts, but it helps me to write them, so I shall keep doing it. Until then, I’m praying for you!
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I can blast off this list because it’s literally been the same for (about) two years now!! The thing about losing weight is that if you do it right and with the right mindset, two things happen…
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