This all being said…I love my life so, so much and I love being busy and having lots to do. But the one thing I had to learn the hard way was that every day, first thing in the morning… it IS my turn to take care of ME first.
It’s almost time for bed and I love looking back on the day and realizing that I — a) drank enough water, b) stayed 100% on track with my nutrition today, c) exercised, and d) had great prayer time at Sunday Mass. Thankful for all this and more today.
Every once in awhile I have to very intentionally sit down and remind myself to stay strong, keep going, don’t give up… etc. etc. all-the-other-motivating-mantras. One of the ways I do that is by putting photos of myself side-by-side.
When I am consistently eating well, exercising, drinking lots of water, sleeping well… all those habits of health add up to me just simply being a better human. And better humans make better spouses. More energy means when we both come home from a long day of work, I can still be present and be a good listener.
Okay wow, I can’t believe I’m saying this. I’ve lost 30 pounds since January 1st!! So dang proud of myself.
“Great.” I thought sarcastically. “This is going to be so embarrassing. She is so good and I look like a fool next to her. Why do I even try? Why am I even here?”
I know now what true beauty is and that is has nothing to do with the scale! And in detaching those two things — my beauty and my weight — I gained the freedom to look at my weight objectively and say, “I know I need to be healthier.”
I excitedly took it into the dressing room to make sure that my $14.99 would be well spent. I felt that familiar feeling of hesitant enthusiasm, followed rapidly by dread…
I honestly thought that having an unhealthy relationship with food, and being unhappy in my clothes was my destiny. I was just going to have to suck it up and deal because this is who I am.
I hope you know that I have a deep desire to be honest and authentic with you so on that note, I have to tell you I was severely disappointed in myself when I get on the scale this morning.