It’s almost time for bed and I love looking back on the day and realizing that I — a) drank enough water, b) stayed 100% on track with my nutrition today, c) exercised, and d) had great prayer time at Sunday Mass. Thankful for all this and more today.
Every once in awhile I have to very intentionally sit down and remind myself to stay strong, keep going, don’t give up… etc. etc. all-the-other-motivating-mantras. One of the ways I do that is by putting photos of myself side-by-side.
When I am consistently eating well, exercising, drinking lots of water, sleeping well… all those habits of health add up to me just simply being a better human. And better humans make better spouses. More energy means when we both come home from a long day of work, I can still be present and be a good listener.
Okay wow, I can’t believe I’m saying this. I’ve lost 30 pounds since January 1st!! So dang proud of myself.
“Great.” I thought sarcastically. “This is going to be so embarrassing. She is so good and I look like a fool next to her. Why do I even try? Why am I even here?”
I know now what true beauty is and that is has nothing to do with the scale! And in detaching those two things — my beauty and my weight — I gained the freedom to look at my weight objectively and say, “I know I need to be healthier.”
I excitedly took it into the dressing room to make sure that my $14.99 would be well spent. I felt that familiar feeling of hesitant enthusiasm, followed rapidly by dread…
I honestly thought that having an unhealthy relationship with food, and being unhappy in my clothes was my destiny. I was just going to have to suck it up and deal because this is who I am.
I hope you know that I have a deep desire to be honest and authentic with you so on that note, I have to tell you I was severely disappointed in myself when I get on the scale this morning.